Dimple aka Sathiya aka Puhan
07031988
Elias Park Pri, Loyang Sec, Nanyang Poly
Loves: watching movies, chocolates, Ben & Jerry's cookie dough, reading novels, chilling out at cafes with a cup of Hazelnut latte & my Loved Ones
Wants: MP4,810i Walkman phone! (just received it! thanks daddy) ample time with my Loved Ones & the happiness that comes along... My Prince Charming...



Image: Moumine
Textures: Hybrid Genesis
Designer: Ebullient*
Editting: HIM







August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007



didi
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valz
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becky
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evon
aruna
amanda (livejournal)
shobana
geetz
zulaikha
stomp
amanda
'lily
tosh'

ME
I love Cookie Monster
Surprise guest- Dinesh Simon
at the coffee-shop
Me and Sumi (my bestie)
Me and Karimah
Me and Raynuga

First and foremost, i would like to wish all the teachers "happy teacher's day"

Woke up as early as 8.30am, because of Karimah's sms! Was friggin mad, damned i slept at 3am only, the day before! Like what the hell!

Met Amalina down my block, around 10 plus to go to our secondary school. Then i met up with Karimah and Sumitha, at the bus-stop, near 7eleven. Karimah!!! You owe me something because you came late!!! haha... Arrived in time for teacher's day celebrations! Oh gawd! I just have no comments about it! The sound system just deafened all our eyes! Love the finale though- take the lead (wanna ride), dance performance by the modern dancers! My identical sister must be beaming proudly! haha...The school hasn't changed pretty much! Saw all my long-lost pals! Oh my! They have seriously changed-new hairstyles, different dressing!!! They look darned good! Miss them alot! Gave all the teachers my hand-made cards! Saw my identical sister, wished her, spoke to her quite long and then left to see other teachers! Stayed in school, till 2plus because some teachers were haivng lunch with the principle! damned! so bloody long! Raynuga, came after school! haha... we wanted to scare her but unfortunately it didn't happen.

Headed down to the canteen... Ewwww... like what the hell! The floor was smeared with cake and the entire environment looked so dirrty and yucky! I didn't have the mood to eat! So we decided to take some random pictures in school, then head to the near-by coffee-shop for lunch! Saw, Venoth (my god bro), Vikram, Shahul and Arjun! Venoth was pissed because i didn't respond to his messages! Dumbo! I changed my number !!! Vikram was pissed because i didn't turn up to hang out with him, on COL night! Arjun was mocking at me for being short! Like what the hell! Get a life Arjun! Height is not everything!

Love all the teachers... bet they really did miss us! yea! we miss you guys too! I dunno why but i came out with an idea of having -indian rojak for lunch... so that all the girls could eat together! The girls liked the idea too! Oh yea! Took some random pictures in the coffee-shop! We even took videos! i guessed we really missed each other like crazy! we used to go back home together, after school, hang-out during recess... this sudden change in our education path has brought us to miss each other more! It has been a few months since i saw the girls!

We had an unexpected guest- dinesh simon! aparently, he wanted raynuga's no! I have seriously nothing to say about this people! - blind in love! Sigh!!! ai yo!

Then we left... headed to tampines mall! Thank god! Raynuga could come this time! yeah!!! Tampines Mall was extremely packed! Oh gawd! Teenagers, with adrenlin rushing, kept coming to the mall... so bloody packed! We bumped into Mr. Heng who asked me again to join him to play pool- initially he wanted to treat all of us ice-cream! Thanks Mr. Heng! Sorry for declining the offers, i just wanted to spend time with my darling girls!

We went window-shopping! We went to the toy shop in Tampines Mall- forgot the toy shop's name though! I took a picture with my favourite teddy bear- Cookie Monster! Childish me... hehe...

We went to Century Square to take our very 1st neo print pictures! Yea! They turned out pretty good! Will post them soon! haha...
I really thank all the girls for taking their time off, to spend time! Thanks alot! I really enjoyed! seriously!!! Miss you guys! Hope to meet-up soon! Like real soon!

OH gawd! Tomorrow i'm starting work! Like what the hell! Had plans to go ECP.. picnic!!! Argh!!! After work lor... no choice! damned! pffft...

Cuddle me because i wanna sleep...

EVERY SITUATION IN LIFE MUST BE FACED, AND SO WHY NOT FACE IT WITH LOVE???

Lost in my thoughts.
4:35 AM <3

Yours Truly, Lil Princess Dimple.

Currently feeling - Butterflies in my tummy
i don't know why...(winks)
Currently listening to: Ne-yo ( Sexy Love)

Today i feel so loved...
i went out, received lotsa gifts... unexpectedly!!! Thank you... Really didn't expect it!!!
I'm feeling good...

Oh yea! By the way, my dear darling friends i've changed my handphone no. So please contact me via msn, to get my New no!

My work schedule is out next week... So i really wanna enjoy this week!!!

HAPPY ADVANCE TEACHER'S DAY GREETINGS!
tomorrow i'm heading down to my secondary school... wanna show my gratitude to my lovely teachers.... Thanks teachers!
Hopefully, i might achieve the dream of becoming a teacher!!!

NEVER LOSE HOPE... HOPE IS A ROPE ON WHICH I SWING THROUGH LIFE!!!

Lost in my thoughts.
9:44 AM <3

Yours Truly, Lil Princess Dimple.

First and foremost, I like to thank all my friends (poly-mates) for their strong support! Thank you guys, i'll be fine with you guys being around me!

Yesterday, phew!!! it was a day filled with activities!!!
Met didi, at tampines mall around 12.40 plus! i was late! Sorry didi darling! We wanted to job search! Freaking bored stayin at home!!!
We had our lunch and then headed down to Century Square...
Ops! Wrong move, saw didi's mum there. So we fled away! Both of us told a different scenario to our parents ( evil grins)....
We came up with the idea of going to Changi Airport...
So we went there looking around for job vacancies!
Saw a few, hopefully we can get our favourite one (prays)

After that, we headed back to Pasir Ris, my home-town! We went to the beach to just chill-out and reflect on ourself! You would not believe this!!! I didn't bring my swim-wear (bikini) and so didi convinced me to just chill in the waters with my undies (which looked like bikini bottoms) and my t-shirt! Thank god both were of same colour! And thank god so much that there weren't anyone in the area we were in! We played... We laughed... We talked about important issues in life! The water was definitely a better therapy rather than retail therapy! As the waves pushed me, i just feel so good and easy! I really enjoyed going to the beach! All my problems seemed nothing, when i just sat and reflected on myself!

After the beach, we went to meet my lovely friend, hushvinee!!! Grabbed a chin-chow, i was freaking dehydrating!!! Hush got some stuff from 7 eleven! We boarded the bus 21. Initially didi and i made plans to watch a movie! On the bus, Hush showed me the COL picts... ops... i seriously didn't know i showed that much of cleavage! Bad bad... ok actually it isn't that bad though??? I loved the COL picts... Hush... Better get me the ones i took with you ok???
We alighted at the same stop- near tampines mall.

We went back to the starting place of the day! haha... didi was so sweet!!! She really touched me.... She paid for my movie tickets because she wanted me to feel better and move over... awww.... how sweet can she be??? I'm really touched! Thanks didi... I really appreciate it!
We caught the movie- Love wreck!
Ok... the movie is so damned nice! Really enjoyed it! Learnt some valuable lessons from there too... I loved the ending... it was damned poignant! It has been long since i watched my genre of movies- romantic comedy!
After that we headed back home!

I really thank god, for giving me a friend like Didi. She spent her entire day, with me. she made me so goood! I seriously, feel proud to have some a wonderful friend! Thanks didi... no words can convey how much you've moved my heart! Thanks babe! ALways love u....

Love is blind; Friendship closes its eyes
Love is blind; Friendship tries not to notice!

Lost in my thoughts.
7:35 PM <3

Yours Truly, Lil Princess Dimple.

One word - Fickle minded
If you like or love her so much, then why care about me???
You told me that there's a major difference between love and like!
But in your scenario, is not like that! It sounds all the same- the old feeling of love
Why are you confusing yourself? and confusing me???

Have i been living a lie for 1 year i question myself???
Oh gawd... u liked her for 4 years! But did you ever mention to me during our courtship???
i was clueless... so when i was with you, you just had thoughts about her???
Was i with a person who constantly thought about someone else but not me???
Don't rebuke back by saying if i had not loved you, would i get you gifts and stuff!
You really toyed with my feelings- I'm SUPER hurt...
So that 1 year was just a dream???

If you had liked/loved her so much, then why you went in a relationship with me???
Any intentions??
Or you just wanted to make a fool outta me???
Or you just wanted to do something like my 1st x boyfriend???
Any revenge???

I feel so Stupid... so shitty!!! I'm such a stupid girl...
Why did you play with my heart???
You think it's fun???
I'm so confuse... i've thrown and hurt a person for YOU...
But what do i get in return???
There's a vast difference between like and love???
bet you don't get it still....
I feel like a toy....
Thanks so much!
I just need to you to enlighten me: why did you go in a relationship with me when you had feelings for her???
Why??? this is a burning question

You have a hindrance- me
I'm preventing you from getting her right???
I'll buzz off... just answer my question...
I'm so confused, fickle- minded...
I just hope you won't play with my heart anymore... trust me... it is heart-wrenching.

Heart-broken...

Lost in my thoughts.
6:23 PM <3

Yours Truly, Lil Princess Dimple.

Yesterday, the party was awesome!!! lotsa food and lotsa fun. I sat in between my identical sister and my friend Aruna. Hushvinee, the birthday girl, looked so pretty, she was dressed in traditional indian wear. We sat in 1 table where all the lysians gathered!

Took lotsa pictures. But the best picture, i think it should be obvious for those who went to the party...
Hushvinee, that Ah pek girl, so giler, called my name! I went bonkers! I really didn't know what was going on. So pai seh!!! Wa lau... Starters for the dance floor... I wanted to hide my face!!!

Danced with everybody! Sean's dance was good! that dude can really dance! My identical sister and me grooved to the beat and shaked our hips (so cute!) My dear god brother, Venoth, danced the modern chicago and cow-boy! Oh boy i can never master that dance at all...
But the best moment... was when i danced with HIM... I looked into HIS eyes... everything around me was so invisible... I looked up at the ceiling, to call for the rain! i wanted to get soaked in rain water... i was extremely delighted! No words or gestures could express my feelings of happiness...
I was saturated with happiness!
If there was anything i wanted, i only wanted love from HIM...

My identical sister couldn't stop looking, giving me that " aha...."look... I couldn't stop grinning!
Took bus 21, alighted at Pasir Ris interchange!
Bid farewell, to each other and we parted our ways- heading back home.
I walked through "that park" again... Thoughts flooded my mind!

All i can say, I enjoyed yesterday, 27/August/2006.... (beams)

Lost in my thoughts.
9:20 PM <3

Yours Truly, Lil Princess Dimple.

Do you know how it feels when your darling sister, gets her pay and treats you to a 300grams FAMOUS AMOS COOKIES??? When you can't eat, because you want your body to cool down-kill that stupid sore eyes!!! Ai yo.... What the fcuk la!!! Wa lau... i love FAMOUS FAMOUS COOKIES!!! I can't eat it because of my stupid eyes!!! damned sore eyes...

Recuperated back( if it is spelt correctly) i just feel better... Thanks to the support from my darling friends!!! Love you guys!!!

Well, i'm gonna have my shower now... gonna get ready to party!!!

Enjoy

Lost in my thoughts.
10:23 PM <3

Yours Truly, Lil Princess Dimple.

Currently listening to : Ennuyire Ennuyire (Uyire-tamil song) Addicted to it...
Currently feeling : Confused... i feel like heading to the park near my house and crying out loud!

Sore eyes, getting a little better! Guess for tomorrow's party, I've to wear sun glasses, not to spread the virus! Yesterday was the most horrible day, i had ever had! Imagine when you're emotionally down and at that same time you're physically down- sore eyes + woman's problem!(The cramps really kill)... enduring all these shits alone, not having your loved one beside you, just sums to me being an ultimate loner! I cried under pillows... despite having my caring father monitoring my sore eyes from time to time. That Man, is so unpredictable-one moment he showers love, the next moment he yells at me. Dad made lunch for brother and me today! Thanks! But my mood hasn't changed a bit! Depression hit me badly, i just hope this is not going be like the time when i was depressed because of my first boyfriend! Men are just too complex!

Spoke to my identical sister. We were talking about Hush's birthday! Then she asked how am i and stuff? it came to the subject of HIM and me... Many people are encouraging to move on... from poly mates, to secondary mates... I seriously dunno... i'm damned confused! The burning question is whether should i wait or not? But some friends say, what's the point of waiting when his interest is in her? Then it is better for you, to move on with life! I really dunno what to say...

For now, i don't wanna cause HIM any emotional hurt or pain! HIS 'o'levels are in 2 months time! I can't be a selfish arse-hole, by giving HIM a tough time! I just want to be HIS friend-HIS close friend, whom he can confide in. I willing to help HIM. Pure friendship is what i want from HIM... Nothing else!

Treat the one whom you love, with lotsa royalty... but the one whom loves you, treat him like dirt!
It is always better to love the person whom loves rather then the person whom you love.
All these stuff keep banging against my head! I dunno... I don't want to make any mistake seriously!
I love HIM.... HE loves her... Another fella loves me... WTH!!!
Ai yo... very confusing! That fella who loves me, has endured so much of shit i've given him... He is well-aware that i love My HIM alot... but this thing he said to me..." It is not a matter of whether you love me or not... but i will always love you... I'm willing to help you be together with the guy whom you love alot."

Tsk tsk... what am i suppose to do??? for now, i just wanna get out of town... away from those bustling noises... i want some serenity... my mind is very disturbed!
Troubled...

Lost in my thoughts.
11:56 PM <3

Yours Truly, Lil Princess Dimple.

I hope this post will be damned long!

Finished my last paper-intro to media industry yesterday! U know what??? thoughts about COL only kept coming in my mind! And not about my exam worries. I seriously dunno how i did for the paper! Oh god!!! You've gotta seriously help me!!!
Was overwhelmed with happiness when i went to poly, because my friends commented that i looked good! And that was a spark for my day to be bright like the Shining Star of David!

Thankfully, Hong Ghee bump into me, before entering the exam hall! we made plans of meeting up each other (after exam) and share a cab! He was in Zone 1 and i was in Zone 3! The paper was ok... not that fantastic! as long i pass it is Ok!!! Finished paper, i dashed out from the hall, despite my PM wanting to see my whole class! Saw Hong Ghee, we flagged for a cab! Thank god! even during the peak hour we got a cab! Yae!

We reached there about 7pm and was greeted by Mr. Poon. Seriously, i was thinking he would prevent us from going in! Then we stood out for a while! Hong Ghee's friend arrived! We saw Mdm Phua! Heng ah!!! we went to her at the reception side! She said we could go but we had to wait for the interval! So we were like ok. Then Ms. Lim came! she brought us up, to the circle terrace! I saw shanu's Mum there! she was shocked! haha... In the circle terrace, i personally feel that the view is ugh! yucks! Hushvini (hush) texted me "where are you gal" so i told her where was i! we agreed that during interval she will come and bring me down! I so wanted to see HIM... remembering all those words HE said... "the only day that i will dress well"! Coincidentally, i saw HIM during the interval, HE came up, i was going down! HE looked darned good... not saying this to falter him or whatsoever! But seriously yes! i didn't approach neither did he... we kept away! Although all my thougths were about HIM... i just suppressed my feelings and walked to my seat! HE also went down! I was greeted by loud screams and shouts "Puhan" by my admirer Thiagu's friends! So i was like hi! That's all... Didn't expect this from this people though!

Sat down! saw my buddy, Syafiq, who so wanted to seat with me because i was a lovely damsel that evening! haha... Cheesy Syafiq! Then watched the entire performance. HE was seating at the row in front of me... a few seats away me.... The darkness enabled me to catch glimpses of HIM... Lucky! The show was alright! Love the finale as i felt like jumping out and dancing together with them! The show ended! Rusydiah came!!! My dearie! My bestie! Hugged her and told her that we must go out soon!! she is such a darling! Thanked Ms. Kursiah for the last minute tickets! May god bless her soul!!! She is lovely! Then, i left out the hall, saw rizar who so wanted to take a pict with me! Fame hasn't died yet though!!! haha... just kidding!


Saw HIM out again! I was taking picts with my dear brother, Venoth, the dear sisters(shyam, hush,fazeelah). was shocked by Mr. heng who wanted to hold hand and take pict! i couldn't refrain from asking Mr. Elmi a pict! hehe... he has a hot body! Then took picts with Syafiq, Hilmi( my darling god-bro), Ms. Vicky( my identical sis) haha and many more! THE ONLY REGRET I HAD WAS NOT TAKING A PICT WITH THE MAN I REALLY LOVE! HOW SAD!

After we took pict, i was running away from this person, who was so bloody clingy! The girls knew who was it! But poor Shyam and Fazeela couldn't walk fast because of their blisters! Hush and i were safe! We walked to Lau Pa Sat ( if it is spelt correctly) and hush told me to blast the music-hips don't lie, so that i can dance! I swayed my hips and received lotsa unwanted attention! Ops wrong move! Stopped it! Then we found a seat for us! Before that hush smiled and spoke to some ah pek or looked like a chi-ko-pek! haha... then i named her... Ah pek gal and fazeelah is called Gal fren! because she is so into her BF! haha...

We settled to eat Satays. I treated the girls. They were touched! haha... something small i did for them... for keeping me happy! I made hush seat beside me. I asked hush what made her gimme such a long message about HIM and me?? That made me reflect on me so much! She just said i see that you're acting girl... that you have nothing for him! But you love him to bits! I didn't know what to say! Tears welled up in my eyes! I controlled myself!

Then i received a warning from hush, that my left eye is slightly red- first sign for sore eyes! Oh gawd! Don't tell me that my sister passed it to me! I'm so gone! After dinner and all that serious talking, i received a call from Mukesh and Ganga, asking about my whereabouts! I was suppose to meet them! After what happened on Monday, i made a decision of not hanging out with them. I just told them i'm coming later! So we all headed to the MRT station! There, in the train we started taking picts like crazy! There was this indian guy, talking to his friend. He smiled at me. i was like ok maybe he smiling at the girls! Then hush also noticed that he kept looking at me and smiling! Fazeelah also noticed it too.Shyam was to drowsy! Ok... i didn't know what to say! Hush was like trying to put connection with him and me... i was like oi!!! damned this girl is so naughty! Hush left at Tanah Merah! Then Fazeelah left at Tampines.... Suddenly, i see the most least expected person- Thiagu, he was like Hey Puhan- outside the train! coincidentally we were in the same train but we didn't know! Then he came in! Asked how am i and stuff! His friends kept disturbing him! The indian's guy's face suddenly fell! Then he alighted at Pasir Ris, took another tain back- i wished him luck for his N's... i told hush and she was like u guys were in a relationship rite? i told her strongly, he likes me alot, but i didn't go in a relationship! couples hang out togther! ai yo... thankfully she understood what i said!

The indian guy, alighted at PR too... haha... he kept turning to look at me. Shyam was protecting me! Thanks gal! i was feeling too good! i told shyam i needed to drink! we went to 7 eleven at the interchange! saw the indian guy again-eeeks he smiled! a wide big smile! ok I dashed out from 7 eleven! they didn't have my favourite drinks too... so we planned to go to the 7 elevn in our area! Walked through the park, memories haunted me... This was the very park, HE held my hands, protected me from a drunkard! HE held me tightly! I remember- we were so in love. And now, it is this very park, that i'm walking like a lone ranger- it really hurts! i really wanna cry!

Went to 7eleven and got a small bottle of abosulute Vodka and orange jucie- to make a screw-driver and a bottler of E thirty-three = forgetting all your pain! went home, sister bombarded me with questions like how was it and stuff! spoke to her for awhile and came to open my lovely bottles! drank.. drank...drank... saw the clock! Freak i came home like Cinderalla-sharp 12 am and to think that i told HIM i was coming damned late! Idiotic! I'm dumb!

Sister told me to have my shower, as my left eye was getting more red! then i slept in my dad's bed! Sister told me that i kept calling out HIS name... i was shocked! Oh god! Then i woke up at 4 am to sounds of Tv and my eye hurts like a Bitch! It is so confirmed that i have sore eyes- god please bless me! I was tempted to message HIM! call me a desperado or whatsoever! i don't care! I commented about his dressing and told him to take care! I placed my phone, real close to me-waiting for something- woke up at diff timings to see my phone. No reply, or anything! Nvm... stared at HIS pict... i miss HIM and all those lovely memories! I hope he at least had fun yest! I had fun remembering HIM and HIS thoughts!

My love for HIM never Dies!

Lost in my thoughts.
10:20 PM <3

Yours Truly, Lil Princess Dimple.

I'm trying to change my blog title, but the stupid damned thing doesn't want to adopt to the new title!!! freak!

Selfish is your nature whilst selfless is my nature!
aha... how true??? very true!!!
The fault is caused by you; refused to accept it and give me lotsa excuses!
why? why let ego and your pride get in your way???
Can't you see it is really making us drift???
Is is so god-damned difficult to accept that you've made a mistake?

Or am i that horrible and terrible not to forgive ya???
Seriously didn't expect this from ya!
This is the way you wanna leave? Just to go with her?
I've got nothing to say!
Thanks for all those beautiful moments and gifts!

I don't wanna drown myself in self-pity or whatsoever!
I've gotta just push myself!
God give me strength!
Mercy...

Lost in my thoughts.
10:41 PM <3

Yours Truly, Lil Princess Dimple.

Aloha!!! It has been a damned long time, since i blogged! Blame it on my busy schedule... ar.... not really! Just spending some quality time with HIM! Exams are around the corner! Students like me are really mugging hard for the exams!Oh god! i really wanna do well for my written papers, like a distinction! Oh please! Gotta buck up! Damned there are loadsa media marketing facts to understand and memorise! Pffttt....

K lemme just not whine much about my exams and concentrate about my social life!

Well so far, things between the both of us are going Great! Extremely Delighted! I love HIM to bits! My Love for HIM grows day by day! I'm praying to God that i Just want to Marry this Man, whom I love and whom loves me! I mean, which girl wouldn't want to Marry a guy, who knows her darned well??? HE knows everything about me, my laziness, me being a lazy bum ( never do housework, cook, just sleep for the whole damned day), me being an idiot ( didn't check my hp, didn't bring fork & spoon for eating), me being clumsy ( butter-fingers), many more.... HE knows me very well! I'm ashamed to say that i'm still learning about HIM! HE is a GEM; seriously! it is not a bias statement, HE is one, as a matter of fact!

HE has made me super Happy! Darl... I really mean this! I feel like i'm a luckiest girl on Earth! I just hope that he would come back to me fully ( you should know what i mean)... The following entry i would have something special for HIM.(beams)

Oh and you know what??? I just received a new Billabong Wallet!!! Yipeee.... I kept my Pink wallet in my drawer! It will be one of collections! Oh yae! This New Wallet is super cool! Reallu love it! Well I won't reveal how i got this wallet! (Beams) Oh gawd! I'm super duper Happy!!! ;-) hopefully my mood does not change!!! (prays)



Alrite gotta chiao... back to hibernation! Cheers!

Lost in my thoughts.
8:14 AM <3

Yours Truly, Lil Princess Dimple.

Heys!!!
School holidays have Began!!! Yipee... No more ICAs.... No more tutorial Homeworks!!! yea....
It's time for me to work! Gotta get $ to buy something special! Gonna drive myself for that!

I'm damned upset today...
I think I'm a "goner"
I'm an Idiot!
I'm gonna Lose...
I hate myself!
Why must this always occur to me?

I should Not have done That!
Damned!
I don't want this to happen
I'm trying my best!
Oh God! Please help me...

Forgive me (HIM)... I love you!

It's Just me & coke now! Ciaoz!

Lost in my thoughts.
10:25 PM <3

Yours Truly, Lil Princess Dimple.

Morning!!! Woke up, pretty early today! Yipee... School is closing real soon! haha... Damned excited!
Phew! At last, i can enjoy mu break!
But here's a dumb news : I've got 2 ICAs today- script-writing and my business portofolio speech!
Damned! Argh! i just wanna get over this two ICAs, then i can relax abit.
Lemme pray hard that i would screw-up my speech this afternoon. Oh gawd, I'm having the butterflies in my tummy! Ewwww....

About yesterday... did nothing much! Slacked at home, pretty exhausted from the previous night's outing! Spoke to HIM pretty long! Yea... That of course, makes my day! haha...

Darl... I'm there, don't worry! You'll do great, i have faith in you!

Ok, i gotta leave soon, so that my group members have sufficient time to colour the storyboard for my television commercial project! Chiao!

Lost in my thoughts.
6:14 PM <3

Yours Truly, Lil Princess Dimple.

Heys!!!
Oh gawd! (beams) I'm so happy!
HE kept me Happy... yipee
Gotta leave for daddy's birthday celebration! I feel so "tired"... sigh! Did lotsa "Housework"!

But my Happiness is Always Short-Lived! Damned!

Anyway, I gotta leave now!
Toodles peeps! oh yes!

HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!
Enjoy the holidays!!!
Cheers!

Lost in my thoughts.
7:10 AM <3

Yours Truly, Lil Princess Dimple.

Ok i'm well-aware that i'm uber crazy to have 4 postings within a day! I'm damned freaking Bored and I'm constantly Thinking about HIM. So what you guys expect me to do??? I totally agree that distance makes the heart grow Foner; it totally work in my situation.

Seriously, HE was Being a DARLING today! HE didn't wanna fight with me because HE knew i had my Interview ICA today. Instead HE was motivating and making me calm down. HE knows me very well... my habits! That when i start to panic, everything gets screwed up! So HE, spoke to me and texted me, slowly making me sooooooooooo relieved! I mean, like 3/4 credits goes to HIM. THANK YOU!!!

Something extremely funny occurred today! All interviewers were to assemble at the discussion room D.422. My turn was about to come, when i suddenly i felt, i needed to quench my thirst. So I saw a bottle of water on the table. I assumed it was Glenda's and i asked her permission to drink her water. " Hey! This is not water; this is Vodka" she replied in her casual normal tone. I thought she was joking. I reached out for the bottle and gulped the "water". Gosh! When the "water" entered my throat, i felt this burning sensation! I was like "What the F*ck!" Michelle saw my weird reaction, she immediately passed me her bottle of water. I ran out from that area, went to a deserted corner, near the lift, spat out the vodka and gurgle my mouth, with Michelle's water! Oh gawd! My voice sounded funny after that! I was abit worried about this sudden change in my voice; different pitching. Thankfully Ros, explained the scenario to Mrs. Viju. Thankfully the both lecturers were very understanding. But Mrs. Viju was kinda curious to know about the wherebouts of the vodka. Ros, strongly told her "Hmmm... Why don't we start the interview first then later we will reveal about the Vodka thingy". The interview started. It went pretty well. I listened to HIS advice, counter-attack my lecturer's sarcasm and comments. After that, we told the lecturers. Initially, they were shocked about it, but, then later they were OK about it. Thank God!!! Stupid Vodka... Brought by #%$%$*(&*!!! haha...

Again a Special Thanks to HIM!!!

Happy Birthday Daddy!!! ;-)

Tomorrow is Daddy's birthday!!! I wish Daddy all the best for the future... Daddy, thank you for providing me all the need and wants! I'm always ya little Dimple girl... "Fattie" hehe... May god bless you with love, prosperity and wealth.

Texted HIM, throughout the way back home. I dunno why, but certain messages he sent me, made me ponder and get upset again! I just dunno why! I felt so uneasy, as though my heart is in Super agony... DARL... don't be upset at me for doing something. I'm really going through a tough time, please understand me! Please.

Alright i'm off now... Gonna get my Coke for Dinner! Yipee!!! (Beams) ;-)

Lost in my thoughts.
5:34 AM <3

Yours Truly, Lil Princess Dimple.

Aloha!!! In Rachel's house... using her lappy now! Poor Rach, can't eat her favourite ikan bilis sambal, made by her lovley mum... Sigh! She has poor weak stomach! Rach has proclaimed herself as a "Useless Indian"... Appropriate name! Oh Rach! you're an Indian, for goodness sake! How come you can't endure eating Spicy food?

Right now, Rach look as she if she entered a dusty room... yup she is having running nose!!! Haha... Ok Rach stop being a pain in my ass! hmmm.... Interview is starting at 2pm. Oh god! Please shower me your blessings, I'm so freaking scared!

Rach, I had to increase my font size, because of you! So you better acknowledge it, by tagging me! I'm just feeling so Sleepy! Oh gawd! I feel like lazing around in Rach's couch! So cozy!!!

HE called me when i was in my way to Rach's house( Beams) haha... I don't really understand my feelings! weird!
Catch ya lata! ;-)

Lost in my thoughts.
9:39 PM <3

Yours Truly, Lil Princess Dimple.

Good morning peeps! Phew! Finally finished my portfolio... rushing to school now! Sigh! Monday Morning Blues! Apart from that i really regret fighting with HIM yesterday. Damned, at times, I just don't really know what's wrong with us! Dreamt of HIM, last night... HE was so lovey-dovey, mushy and all the triats that could melt my heart! AGAIN! I'm thinking about him... I guess he does not feel the way like i do... Otherwise he would have respected my feelings and regarded it... I mean, does HE not have the clue that i'm feeling so INSECURE??? Oh? Is HE just ignoring the fact??? I really don't know! I'm just praying that HE would look at things from my perspective, i want him to acknowledge that i'm feeling insecure... I think i'm just Losing HIM ;-(

Gotta go! Toodles peeps! see ya later!

Lost in my thoughts.
4:20 PM <3

Yours Truly, Lil Princess Dimple.

Yet another day, to make a tough decision. Don't ask me what it is about. Damned! I'm feeling so upset. I mean i just feel like i'm being a Bother to HIM. HE does not call me like often or even sms me. I just feel like a total idiot! Is it just me??? Assumptions or whatever? Argh! For umpteen times, i'm having these thoughts. I spoke to HIM, via msn. I said " I love you". HIS reply was "Hmmm". I was taken aback by his response. I don't expect him to say "I Love you" or whatsoever. But what does "Hmmm" mean??? Say "Ok" or something better. I was dissapointed. Anyway this was expected! Nothing new! I didn't call HIM throughout the day, excluding the morning call. HE had tuition in his dad's office. You see... When i'm left alone, i do ponder about many issues. At that moment, i just felt that HE was ignoring me and wanted me to buzz off.

I clearly don't understand why i had such thoughts in my mind. But i'm really Sure that HE is No longer that Man, i knew, 3 years ago... sad to say eh? Out of the blue, I just had thoughts that... when I wait for HIM, I might just lose HIM and be a Fool. HE may say NO to all my doubts but HIS actions convey a different message to me. I just don't really know. My life is total mess;chaos! Sometimes i ask God, why do have many cross-roads in my life??? Prayers are the only way to calm a soul like me. Thoughts such as "HE leaving me", "HE cheating me" and many more, race through my mind. I mean i keep thinking that HE keeps talking to her. A picture of them having Great Good Communication is portrayed in my mind. I'm just feeling so Horrible!

Apart from this shitty stuff... I've have to make a real tough decision : Whether I would stay here? or move Overseas??? I aint going to spill out anything about my future country. Let's all put it in God's hands... Changes do always occur...

Oh damned! you know what??? I've not started with my portfolio! The worst part: I'm suppose to hand-up tommorrow! So how Shitty is this??? Procrastinate and this is what you get! You reap what you sow! A meaningful saying!

Thank god! School is at 9am tomorrow! Oh yea! I've my interview with my lecturer tomorrow. Hopefully, everything goes smoothly... I want a High score!
Out of curiosity, i went to 7 eleven, to get a Big M-strawberry flavour. Tried it. Not bad though! Kinda healthy! It does not taste that sweet. Love it!
THANK HIM FOR RECOMMENDING ME TO TRY STRAWBERRY FLAVOUR!

Oh gawd! I really wanna watch this poignant Hindi movie..."Kahbi....." i don't really recall the movie's name! But i really like the movie, as it focuses on an important issue : Relationships... I guess, in today's world there seem to be lots of relationship problems. When a Boyfriend and Girlfriend, fight... A break-up should not be an ultimate solution. My cousin sister and her husband had a 10 year courtship, before they got married. Personally, I know the troubles my cousin sister went through. I aint being biased or anything! But both of them had their faults! I mean NO one is Perfect in the world. Everyone makes mistakes. They had situations which pushed them to break-up, but,they didn't.... They stood Strong! I seriously, admire them for their perserverance. Hard work pays off! I don't think many couples adopt this method! Take my life as example! Sad to say... Ok... I know i'm selfish and stuff... the list can go on. But the person who loves me, should love me for who i am... and accept me... Definitely, love can change a person's character and habits. I'm wondering... Is HE the one meant for me??? doubts and more doubts...CONFUSED!!!

Lost in my thoughts.
9:17 AM <3

Yours Truly, Lil Princess Dimple.

Weekends! Weekends! Weekends!
i always look foward to the weekends, the only two days of, lazing around the couch and sleeping like a pig. With a new addition of being a couch potato. Away from all those stupid ICAs and projects which are constantly drilled through every polytechnic's student's heads. Pity them!
To welcome the following week with a Happy Note: School is closing in a week's time! Yea!!! But unfortunately, this aint a great opportunity to meet-up with my old friends or even chill-out with my girl friends, because, i'm having my exams in three weeks times, i guess!!! Sigh! I gotta start revising on my media marketing and introduction to media industry! Two papers only??? But the content is Enough to Kill!!!

Time to Stop whining! I should learn to appreciate Life! This week has some Upsand Downs. I met up with HIM, but it wasn't the way, i thought it would turn out to be. Such a Great disappointment. After days of crying, i just couldn't bring myself to tear. Instead i reacted in total Odd way: i was so Stoned; totally no emotions at all. Now! That really sounds scary! Thankfully, HE called. Eventually things got solved and I'm back to Normal; excluding the fact that i skip all my three meals and just survive on fluids.
I seriously don't understand what is wrong with me! I can't sleep and I really Can't eat! I miss HIm badly! Sigh! If only i did appreciate him, i wouldn't be facing all these shits! So People out there! It is definitely important to appreciate your loved one; also make them feel loved!
Everytime HE calls, my heart skips a beat! i just feel like some young teenage girl in love; not that i'm very old, just entering into the world of young adults. My only ultimate desire : To get HIM back in my life.
I was lost in my thoughts. A few dasy ago, i went to my best friend's place, i saw her mother's wrist were scarred with marks-wrist cutting! i was totally dumb-founded! i really didn't expect her to slit her wrist with a pen knife. I was thinking: If i should address the issue to her mother, and just advice her? Curiousity Kills a Cat, i diverted my thoughts away, afraid that her mother would be offended. Today, suprisingly, i wanted to carve his name, using a pen-knife, on my hand. I clearly don't understand why such thoughts enter through my mind. Perhaps it is just that, i'm afraid i would LOSE HIM! I told him, i'm facing a battle: i've put my heart 100% in it, hopefully i don't get devestated. The judgement is really in God's hands. Right mow, I'm just waiting for HIM to call! Damned, i really turning crazy! Oh boy, I miss you!

Hmmm... Like what i mentioned earlier, school is closing soon. This week, I don't have lessons on wednesday! Yea! But I have an ICA on Monday- interview with Mr.Seah, for my broadcasting Module. I'm scared! I really wanna do well, hopefully, I'll manage to finish 15 questions with him. On tuesday, I've an ICA- My portfolio for Business Module! I'm wondering what should i work as in the media industry??? Television and radio presenters are cliche! Maybe something to do in the marketing line! Oh yea! I know what i wanna be. I wanna work in MDA, as the person, who, has the opportunity to view movies first, rate them, approve them for screening in Singapore theatres. All depends on which media company i would be attached to, at the end of three years! God Bless me!

Today, i was woken up by an ass! Stupid, freak-of-nature, Vikneswaran! People are sleeping! I was sleeping soundly, till this idiot had to ring me up in the morning like 9.30am. I erased all contact of this swine, so when i saw an unknown number, i thought it was a call from my poly friend's house or sth. But after the idiot introduced himself, i knew it was him : THE SWINE! he just had to further infuriate me by giving comments like "Eh! Morning already! You're an indian girl, sleeping like a pig, not a good sign for the house! He went on rattling!" I was so pissed that i just said " Eh shut up! Get Lost", ended the call, placed my phone on my table so that i need not answer such nuisance calls! Even HE allows me to sleep long. My parents ahve No qualms about me sleeping so long! So i clearly don't understand what is his problem? Weirdo! Typical sterotypical Indian guy! Yucks! Thank god HE is SO different from all those guys! I aint against indian guys, just that, this kinda guys piss me off to the core! Freaks of nature!

I'm gonna spend my night, at home, preparing my Portfolio and just talking to HIM. This is gonna be a routine for me. Cheers!

Lost in my thoughts.
2:27 AM <3

Yours Truly, Lil Princess Dimple.

my first post. nth to say. editting in process.

Lost in my thoughts.
6:22 AM <3

Yours Truly, Lil Princess Dimple.